The Life of Dayse

Hello World, I know I've been a bit absent lately. I've been meaning to blog, but these past few months have been a roller coaster for me. Let me catch you up... My first round of chemotherapy did not go well at all. I was in the hospital for 7 hours, and I had two allergic reactions to one of my immunotherapy drugs and the first chemo drug. They had to stop it twice. The first reaction sent cold chills through my whole body. I started to shiver uncontrollably; despite the amount of blankets my sister kept piling on me. When the nurse came in to check on me, she asked me what I was feeling in that moment. After I described it, immediately an entire crew swarmed into the room. I could see them pulling out things quickly and stopping the immunotherapy. They had to bring me back to "baseline." Success. I was able to finish it off. Then they started the first chemo drug, and I only received half of it before my body started to feel itchy and heat. My breathing became ...

Hello world, It's been a minute. I guess...things are getting harder to write about right now. I'm in my feelings lately, and I'm trying to avoid being super emotional all the time. You'd be surprised the things that people say that make you tear up when you're going through a very difficult moment... The past month has been difficult. The past month has been emotional... I've had to make huge changes in my appearance in order to brace myself for what's to come. Well, what I think is "bracing" myself. The process has officially begun my friends. In my "personality A" attempt, I tried to beat it to the punch, and I chopped off my hair. One of the things I felt defined me as a person for the longest time, and now it's gone. I have only had my hair cut this short one other time in life, and it was the saddest day of my life. I cried. This time...I didn't cry, but I could feel the tears building when I thought about it too much....

Hi world. It's been about two months since I've received the diagnosis for my health. I've been wanting to discuss this topic, but I didn't know how to address it without coming off as insensitive to how people process shocking news. As the person going through it, I can say that I've seen all types of reactions. The day I informed my family of the news. Someone  (a non-believer) decided to retaliate saying "where is your God now?"  I was feeling everything at once. One would think that a person found in my condition would be considered very vulnerable. It wasn't until that moment that I had to stop and shake off the discouragement.There was a fire inside that felt a need to defend God. I always think back to Job. If you had the slightest knowledge of the book of Job, then you would know that God was there the entire time. When we see Job restored, we see God glorified. Not people's opinions or theories of how and why...we simply and clearly ...

Hello friends, ...what a tough blow. I know I've been quiet about my process since my last post, but I just needed some time to gain more courage to write.  It seems like my world has started spinning out of control. Sometimes, it's hard to take a moment to breathe with all of the tests, doctor visits, procedure options, questions, etc. Needless to say, it's been overwhelming.  Most may think...well yeah, it's cancer. Actually, I've come to terms with my physical condition. So. No, it's not because it's cancer (at least not completely). The overwhelming aspect of this process has been making decisions about my near and far future. Chemo and surgery take a toll on a body, and I may have to face some of those harsh consequences.  There was a moment last week, where I stood there stuck between two machines, and all I could do was cry for help internally. A few minutes before that exam, I received words of encouragement and love from a believer. ...

Happy New Year. Where do I begin? I guess I could begin by telling you my news. I've been making myself productive in other areas, because I've unconsciously been avoiding this post. Someone asked me recently about my new years resolution. At first, my initial thought was a bit of a Debbie downer, so I refrained from giving such a blunt answer. As I've thought a bit more about that question, I've decided to be more of an open book.  2018 has indeed left its mark... I've had a tumor growing. Since August I've been trying to get answers, and I finally had enough and went to see my specialist in SC. I felt like people were trying to give me bad news, but giving me the run around before delivering it. I stayed positive that this was just another benign tumor. I've had two in my past, so I was not new to this whole process. However, the tumor didn't feel the same. Something inside kept telling me this was different, and it needed to be handled as ...

Hello lovely people, I know I should be making labels, cutting paper, putting Kindergarten names on popsicle sticks, making my toilet spider...but I just need a small break. It has been a long week and weekend. I think I deserve to blog today. LOL. At any rate, as I've been working two jobs, and reconnecting with old friends, I've encountered some interesting questions and conversations. Is this the first time? OF COURSE NOT. THAT WOULD BE TOO NICE OF LIFE...It all started about three weeks ago, where I was first being asked the infamous question. Are you married?...(cordially) no. Do you have a boyfriend?...(getting a little annoyed) no. Do you have children?...(ok, this should be their last question) no. The responses after this have been on both sides of the spectrum...WHAT? or GIRL, GOOD FOR YOU! This is the never ending conversation starter for 95% of the people who meet me, and I've learned to tolerate it. However, there are times when someone who has known me f...

Hello World! Welcome to my lifestyle blog. Some of you may know me from "Dazzling Dayse," and some of you may not know me at all. It's ok...this is a chance to have a little peep into my life. I've made this blog to share some of my experiences with you and be ... an open book, which is truly a challenge for me. I always say I'm socially awkward. LOL. Some of us were built that way. The good thing is that we have an outlet. A way to express ourselves even if we're too afraid to do it in person. I know I'm not the only reserved quiet person out there, so I hope that you find this blog helpful. Maybe it will build the courage in me to speak up more in public. My body tends to show all signs of nervousness, and it's embarrassing. God knows why He built me that way. If there is anyone I would compare myself to in the Bible, it would be Moses for sure. I'm not mad at it tho, because God used Moses to do some of the greatest works in His word. ;) S...