The Life of Dayse

 Hello World,  How do I begin to explain the feelings I'm having right now? I'm in the middle of a career change, and that means ... interviews, interviews, interviews . I'll let you know making a change in your life in your 30s is not ideal. The job market stinks right now, so I do feel like I'm having to settle for just enough. If you know me, you know that if I don't LOVE it, I won't commit to it. I'm torn.   I guess it's part of discovering my genuine interests and goals. Don't get me wrong. I LOVE children, but I don't love teaching enough to commit to it for a life time. At least, I do not feel like I could settle into the teacher role at ONE location forever. I feel like that's more of a retirement goal.  So what's next Dayse? What's next in my life? I guess that really depends on the job that decides I'm worth the investment, and the longevity of that position. I can make extreme choices that no one will understand, or I ...

 Hello World,  Vacation is over now, and I can get back to adulting. LOL. I have to say being in beautiful state and spending time with family is always a great small vacay. So, if you've never visited Portland, Oregon, it's a must! There's so much diversity, and the food is bomb! I haven't been disappointed yet! Oh, if you're a coffee lover, then you'll definitely enjoy the many places with amazing coffee! There were times that I didn't even put sugar in it...and that's wild to me! It was so good! I mean, I clearly was blessed to have such a great brother to care for me while I was in Portland! The air even feels fresh! Just go, you won't be disappointed. The views are amazing!  At any rate, I really just had so much fun! I mean, I did quite a few things on my own, but no biggie, I still enjoyed me! LOL. I took those moments to reflect on myself as a person. I'm kind of in the middle of an identity crisis. Yeah, I don't have it all figured o...

 Hello World,  Let's try to make this a thing. I can admit I'm the worst with consistency, but I'm trying to improve that area of my life. Today I wanted to talk about a recent moment that allowed me to see and feel a glimpse of unconditional love. I like to think of myself as someone who has experienced love throughout my life, regardless of the unfortunate events.  However, I can't say that I understood the term unconditional love to its' fullest until recently. As Christians, we always hear of God's unconditional love for us, but when do we ever really experience what it looks and feels like. We are human. We tie our love to conditions whether we like to admit it or not. As long as the person treats me right, I can love them. As long as they don't cross certain boundaries, I can love them. Sometimes, we form these conditions unknowingly.  What about someone who has wronged you? What about someone who mistreated you on purpose? What about someone who is a...

 Hello World,  I know. I know. I've been gone for quite some time. I don't even have a good excuse. Just life. Life happens so quickly sometimes that we hardly have time to breathe - at least my life has been that way since ending my treatment two years ago. It seems like so long ago, and then I realize it's only been 24 months. CRAZY!  Some days it feels like I never went through cancer. Other days, my body reminds me that it wasn't that long ago. The good news...my hair and brows are back-partially. LOL. I have to say I've come a long way in the hair game. ;)  Since ending my treatment, life has been a roller coaster. I've moved 3 times over the past 2 years. I left Florida and moved back to South Carolina. I came home in the middle of a pandemic. I pretty much went into "hiding" for the past 2 years, because I was protecting myself from COVID-19. My immune system just wasn't ready to handle a sickness.  Regardless of all of the care, I still cau...

Hello World... Where to begin? How to end? My world is turning right side up after being tossed upside down and in many directions for the past year and a half. I stand in the light that’s at the end of the tunnel. The grey clouds have lifted, and the beautiful clear skies adorn my atmosphere. I can finally breathe with peace in my heart. When I was on the radiation table a few months ago, there was a painting on the roof of a beautiful spring clear sky with flowers blooming on both sides. I would always imagine what life would be like if I could be outside at that moment instead of a metal table getting radiated through my body. I would often find myself tearing up...not out of pain, but out of exhaustion. Often, I prayed for a different scenario, where my life wasn't pinned against a wall. Where I could lay in the sun and take in the fresh air without fear of burning my skin or exposing my immune system. Well, the day has come... I AM OFFICIALLY A CANCER SURVIVOR.  I can ...

Hello World, Hip Hip Hooray! What can I say? Radiation is over and it made my day. Ok, that's about all of the rhyming I have in me this early in the morning. LOL. I'm waiting for my second appointment today in Tampa, so I thought I would update the blog. Yes, I still have many appointments in my future, but my daily appointments of getting radiated are over! Praise God! I have been getting radiation since after Thanksgiving until 4 days ago. Tuesday was the conclusion of 6 weeks of radiation. It has been a rough road indeed. All I can say is that God has given me strength to make it this far. When I was inquiring about the side effects of radiation, there were many horrifying and disheartening stories. I was a little afraid of the long term side effects of radiation on my heart and lungs. However, I trusted the Lord to keep them safe. If I was going to be allowed to walk down this road, then I knew God had a purpose for it. He hasn't left me yet, so why would He leav...

Hello World, HAPPY NEW YEAR! Oh boy. I have been looking forward to leaving 2019 behind for good. It has been such an "adventurous" year to say the least. If I could describe the past year, I would need to write an entire book. hehehe. I've actually had many people tell me to write a book. Maybe one day, when I've gathered enough courage to make it happen. Better yet...when God opens doors for me, I'll walk through them. :) Instead, I'm going to describe 2019 as a year of --TRUST. Despite all of my circumstances, I've had to learn to trust God the whole way. Only through that trust in my Savior...my Healer...my Counselor...my Strength...my Waymaker...my Redeemer was I able to make it to the year 2020. As I said my final prayer of 2019 and first prayer of 2020, my heart was overwhelmed with the greatness of God in my life. He's been so good to me! It's hard not to cry when I think of the Lord and all He has done for me. On New Years Eve, I was...