The Life of Dayse

Hello friends, ...what a tough blow. I know I've been quiet about my process since my last post, but I just needed some time to gain more courage to write.  It seems like my world has started spinning out of control. Sometimes, it's hard to take a moment to breathe with all of the tests, doctor visits, procedure options, questions, etc. Needless to say, it's been overwhelming.  Most may think...well yeah, it's cancer. Actually, I've come to terms with my physical condition. So. No, it's not because it's cancer (at least not completely). The overwhelming aspect of this process has been making decisions about my near and far future. Chemo and surgery take a toll on a body, and I may have to face some of those harsh consequences.  There was a moment last week, where I stood there stuck between two machines, and all I could do was cry for help internally. A few minutes before that exam, I received words of encouragement and love from a believer. ...

Happy New Year. Where do I begin? I guess I could begin by telling you my news. I've been making myself productive in other areas, because I've unconsciously been avoiding this post. Someone asked me recently about my new years resolution. At first, my initial thought was a bit of a Debbie downer, so I refrained from giving such a blunt answer. As I've thought a bit more about that question, I've decided to be more of an open book.  2018 has indeed left its mark... I've had a tumor growing. Since August I've been trying to get answers, and I finally had enough and went to see my specialist in SC. I felt like people were trying to give me bad news, but giving me the run around before delivering it. I stayed positive that this was just another benign tumor. I've had two in my past, so I was not new to this whole process. However, the tumor didn't feel the same. Something inside kept telling me this was different, and it needed to be handled as ...