The Life of Dayse

Hello World,  Wow, so much is happening at one time, and I don't know how to process it all. So, I'll write. :) I wanted to share an experience I had today...well, technically yesterday. Steroids can really keep you up, so you can thank them later. hahaha. I chose this title because I felt this today more than any other time that I've been to Moffitt. This was my second to last chemotherapy session. As we entered Moffitt, the smell of fear, annoyance, exhaustion, and medicine hit me. One session closer to being done with chemo, and one session closer to having to make the biggest decision of my life. So many thoughts hit me as we walked through the door. I don't express these things, because I don't want to be a Debbie downer to anyone who's making time to be with me. Most of all,  I don't want to worry them. Today was different. As we walked towards the blood draw center, a lady was waiting for someone, and my friend recognized her. Little did I kno...

Hello World, I've been quiet. I know. 16 rounds of chemo and 4 more to go - it's been a long journey my friends. Finally, some light at the end of the tunnel...I'm having to make some difficult decisions, and it's not always easy to want to write. I know I should write, because it helps me process my thoughts and feelings. I've had to cope with complete hair loss and effects to my body due to chemo. I always joked that I would look like a bird. LOL. Well, I think I look more like Mr. Clean than a bird, but birds are cute so we'll stick to bird for now. hahaha. Let me just say...this journey is hard. Extremely hard. Sometimes it's gets harder and harder to leave home. Some days I just want to lay in my bed and forget the world exists. Other days, I force myself to get up and live, because I know I have a purpose. A purpose I may not see clearly, but I trust God is carrying out in me. God always knows what you need when you need it. When I didn't expec...