Last Chemo...God's done it again!
Hello World,
I only have one hour before I pass out on my keyboard. LOL. I'm a teacher now! We have bed times, and mine was an hour ago. hahaha.
I wanted to share the good news that has been everywhere, BUT...I need to break it down for you. It's been on my heart the past few days. I'M OFFICIALLY DONE WITH CHEMOTHERAPY!!! AHHHHHHHH!!! YESSS!!! GLORY TO GOD!!!
Ok, I don't want to hurt your eyes with too many exclamations, but boy did it feel GOOD! I have been going through this process since Jan/Feb of this year. It was a long 8 months but I'm finally finished with chemo. Yes, I rang that bell. Ok, but hold on...pause. rewind. Let's go to the morning of my last day.
So, I leave my house to meet my friend, who was going to drive me to Moffitt that day. Little did I know what to expect. I pulled up expecting to do the same thing. Hop in the car and drive away on our two hour trip, but that day she parked far away. I was curious, but I didn't think too much of it. When she pulled up, all I could do was laugh. She had decorated her car in the best sayings ever. Inside I saw balloons, lots of balloons. Then I saw gifts and flowers... I laughed, because I didn't know how else to react. I'm awkward I know. I just felt so many emotions at once. I wanted to cry and laugh all at once. I'm usually one of the two extremes.
When we got in the car and started to drive away, I started opening the gifts. Everything was so planned and thoughtful. My heart felt warm. Then she told me the most touching story of these complete strangers sending me the most beautiful roses to wish me a great last day of chemo. UGH! The tears rolled...I felt love, happiness, and gratefulness all at the same time. I didn't know it was possible to cry out of happiness. I've seen it, but I had never felt it. How could this simple southern girl have so much support surround her? How could I deserve to be treated with so much care and love?
I have always been THAT FRIEND...but for once I had a friend who was THAT FRIEND for me. I couldn't have asked for a better cheerleader! She put the most important one in front of it all...GOD. God was with me throughout this journey. God helped me and gave me the strength to keep moving forward. No matter how dark it got sometimes, God showed up every time to remind me of His favor and love. God is good.
Wow. I'm actually done. It's a bit surreal. God was so good to me that day. Everything went so good. I couldn't have asked for a better ending to this torturous part of the process. The light at the end of the tunnel was more visible that day. I still have a long way to go, but one of the hardest parts is over. The effects of chemo still take a toll on me here and there, but I am just glad that now my body has a chance to fight back. I am starting to feel my energy come back, and I feel like me again...a better version of me. It's a work in progress, but I'm seeing my world with a different perspective.
As I shared this with a cancer survivor today, I realized that the way I relate to people is much more different. I can speak of God's love and mercy over my life with certainty and share that mutual feeling with someone. They said, "it's nice to share this with someone who's been through the same thing." I was touched. Glory to God.
So what's next? Well, I have a biopsy tomorrow to see if there's any remaining cancer. In addition, I have to make a decision about surgery. I'm in the process of seeking a second opinion for my own sanity. Just pray for me. I can't say what's to come, but I can say that I trust God to be present through it as He has been these past months. I trust God, because without Him I wouldn't have made it this far. He placed me in the right place at the right time with the right people...and for that, I will always praise Him.
Love,
Dayse
I only have one hour before I pass out on my keyboard. LOL. I'm a teacher now! We have bed times, and mine was an hour ago. hahaha.
I wanted to share the good news that has been everywhere, BUT...I need to break it down for you. It's been on my heart the past few days. I'M OFFICIALLY DONE WITH CHEMOTHERAPY!!! AHHHHHHHH!!! YESSS!!! GLORY TO GOD!!!
Ok, I don't want to hurt your eyes with too many exclamations, but boy did it feel GOOD! I have been going through this process since Jan/Feb of this year. It was a long 8 months but I'm finally finished with chemo. Yes, I rang that bell. Ok, but hold on...pause. rewind. Let's go to the morning of my last day.
So, I leave my house to meet my friend, who was going to drive me to Moffitt that day. Little did I know what to expect. I pulled up expecting to do the same thing. Hop in the car and drive away on our two hour trip, but that day she parked far away. I was curious, but I didn't think too much of it. When she pulled up, all I could do was laugh. She had decorated her car in the best sayings ever. Inside I saw balloons, lots of balloons. Then I saw gifts and flowers... I laughed, because I didn't know how else to react. I'm awkward I know. I just felt so many emotions at once. I wanted to cry and laugh all at once. I'm usually one of the two extremes.
When we got in the car and started to drive away, I started opening the gifts. Everything was so planned and thoughtful. My heart felt warm. Then she told me the most touching story of these complete strangers sending me the most beautiful roses to wish me a great last day of chemo. UGH! The tears rolled...I felt love, happiness, and gratefulness all at the same time. I didn't know it was possible to cry out of happiness. I've seen it, but I had never felt it. How could this simple southern girl have so much support surround her? How could I deserve to be treated with so much care and love?
I have always been THAT FRIEND...but for once I had a friend who was THAT FRIEND for me. I couldn't have asked for a better cheerleader! She put the most important one in front of it all...GOD. God was with me throughout this journey. God helped me and gave me the strength to keep moving forward. No matter how dark it got sometimes, God showed up every time to remind me of His favor and love. God is good.
Wow. I'm actually done. It's a bit surreal. God was so good to me that day. Everything went so good. I couldn't have asked for a better ending to this torturous part of the process. The light at the end of the tunnel was more visible that day. I still have a long way to go, but one of the hardest parts is over. The effects of chemo still take a toll on me here and there, but I am just glad that now my body has a chance to fight back. I am starting to feel my energy come back, and I feel like me again...a better version of me. It's a work in progress, but I'm seeing my world with a different perspective.
As I shared this with a cancer survivor today, I realized that the way I relate to people is much more different. I can speak of God's love and mercy over my life with certainty and share that mutual feeling with someone. They said, "it's nice to share this with someone who's been through the same thing." I was touched. Glory to God.
So what's next? Well, I have a biopsy tomorrow to see if there's any remaining cancer. In addition, I have to make a decision about surgery. I'm in the process of seeking a second opinion for my own sanity. Just pray for me. I can't say what's to come, but I can say that I trust God to be present through it as He has been these past months. I trust God, because without Him I wouldn't have made it this far. He placed me in the right place at the right time with the right people...and for that, I will always praise Him.
Love,
Dayse
Comments
Post a Comment