Life in 2022

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 Hello World, 

I know. I know. I've been gone for quite some time. I don't even have a good excuse. Just life. Life happens so quickly sometimes that we hardly have time to breathe - at least my life has been that way since ending my treatment two years ago. It seems like so long ago, and then I realize it's only been 24 months. CRAZY! 

Some days it feels like I never went through cancer. Other days, my body reminds me that it wasn't that long ago. The good news...my hair and brows are back-partially. LOL. I have to say I've come a long way in the hair game. ;) 


Since ending my treatment, life has been a roller coaster. I've moved 3 times over the past 2 years. I left Florida and moved back to South Carolina. I came home in the middle of a pandemic. I pretty much went into "hiding" for the past 2 years, because I was protecting myself from COVID-19. My immune system just wasn't ready to handle a sickness. 

Regardless of all of the care, I still caught it. I went out twice and boom, there I was sick in bed from COVID-19. Yes, my body fought hard, but God made it possible for me to fully recover. I thank God for my family who cared for me during those hard weeks. I wouldn't have made it without them. 

After that, I got vaccinated and my life has continued to move on. I was able to go back to work part-time. I would be lying if I told you everything was easy these past 2 years, but I've learned so much about myself being back home. 

For example: 

  • I tolerate less. 
  • I tend to be brutally honest. 
  • I like boundaries. 
  • I like silence. 
  • I don't care for things/people who make me uncomfortable or upset. 
  • My mental, emotional, and physical health are more important than trying to "fix" things. 
  • I understand my worth.
  • I won't settle for things that don't make me genuinely happy. 
  • I love and appreciate the small things in life. 
  • I'm a highly sensitive person. (thanks Psych2go for this one LOL)
  • I know where I want to be in 5 years (more or less - God willing). 
  • I am learning to live in the now. 
  • I love books.
  • I connect with elderly people so easily. 
Those are just a few. To be honest, I like this person I'm becoming. For the first time in my adult life, it's not about everyone else. It's just me. God and me. Maybe it's a little selfish, but I've learned that sometimes having that time alone is necessary to see the picture with clear eyes. 


God is not done with me yet. Even when I feel like giving up, He reminds me of His love for me. God is teaching me to truly depend on Him for my redemption. I'll leave you on this note...I don't know what you've been going through (financial issues, family issues, health issues, career issues, etc), but I know ONE thing is guaranteed - lean on God and God will give your soul peace through it all. Don't be anxious or fearful of the unknown, but walk knowing God will be the lamp to your feet, and a light to your path. (Psalms 119:105) Everything will fall into place. Trust in Him.<3 

Sincerely, 
Dayse

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