The Life of Dayse

Hello World!  I'm back! Again...and again...and again. Let's face it. This is our complicated relationship. lol. At any rate, I have so many things I want to share, but I have to introduce them at the right time. In God's time. If you don't know, this is my lifestyle blog. I have a fashion/beauty blog as well, but I'll have to post something new later. It's kind of hard to always be an open book, especially when so much is going on in my life. Nothing is consistent, but I am at peace with all of the changes.  Through this journey of changes, I am discovering my love for reading again. As some of you may know, I teach. As a Kindergarten teacher, I know the building blocks for reading, but I've recently discovered the building blocks for the soul. As a Christian, many would say the Bible! Can I be honest? Sometimes, the Bible can be hard to read. I also hate the subject of history...or I thought I did until one of new york's times best selling authors put ...

 Hello World,  How do I begin to explain the feelings I'm having right now? I'm in the middle of a career change, and that means ... interviews, interviews, interviews . I'll let you know making a change in your life in your 30s is not ideal. The job market stinks right now, so I do feel like I'm having to settle for just enough. If you know me, you know that if I don't LOVE it, I won't commit to it. I'm torn.   I guess it's part of discovering my genuine interests and goals. Don't get me wrong. I LOVE children, but I don't love teaching enough to commit to it for a life time. At least, I do not feel like I could settle into the teacher role at ONE location forever. I feel like that's more of a retirement goal.  So what's next Dayse? What's next in my life? I guess that really depends on the job that decides I'm worth the investment, and the longevity of that position. I can make extreme choices that no one will understand, or I ...

 Hello World,  Vacation is over now, and I can get back to adulting. LOL. I have to say being in beautiful state and spending time with family is always a great small vacay. So, if you've never visited Portland, Oregon, it's a must! There's so much diversity, and the food is bomb! I haven't been disappointed yet! Oh, if you're a coffee lover, then you'll definitely enjoy the many places with amazing coffee! There were times that I didn't even put sugar in it...and that's wild to me! It was so good! I mean, I clearly was blessed to have such a great brother to care for me while I was in Portland! The air even feels fresh! Just go, you won't be disappointed. The views are amazing!  At any rate, I really just had so much fun! I mean, I did quite a few things on my own, but no biggie, I still enjoyed me! LOL. I took those moments to reflect on myself as a person. I'm kind of in the middle of an identity crisis. Yeah, I don't have it all figured o...

 Hello World,  Let's try to make this a thing. I can admit I'm the worst with consistency, but I'm trying to improve that area of my life. Today I wanted to talk about a recent moment that allowed me to see and feel a glimpse of unconditional love. I like to think of myself as someone who has experienced love throughout my life, regardless of the unfortunate events.  However, I can't say that I understood the term unconditional love to its' fullest until recently. As Christians, we always hear of God's unconditional love for us, but when do we ever really experience what it looks and feels like. We are human. We tie our love to conditions whether we like to admit it or not. As long as the person treats me right, I can love them. As long as they don't cross certain boundaries, I can love them. Sometimes, we form these conditions unknowingly.  What about someone who has wronged you? What about someone who mistreated you on purpose? What about someone who is a...

 Hello World,  I know. I know. I've been gone for quite some time. I don't even have a good excuse. Just life. Life happens so quickly sometimes that we hardly have time to breathe - at least my life has been that way since ending my treatment two years ago. It seems like so long ago, and then I realize it's only been 24 months. CRAZY!  Some days it feels like I never went through cancer. Other days, my body reminds me that it wasn't that long ago. The good news...my hair and brows are back-partially. LOL. I have to say I've come a long way in the hair game. ;)  Since ending my treatment, life has been a roller coaster. I've moved 3 times over the past 2 years. I left Florida and moved back to South Carolina. I came home in the middle of a pandemic. I pretty much went into "hiding" for the past 2 years, because I was protecting myself from COVID-19. My immune system just wasn't ready to handle a sickness.  Regardless of all of the care, I still cau...

Hello World... Where to begin? How to end? My world is turning right side up after being tossed upside down and in many directions for the past year and a half. I stand in the light that’s at the end of the tunnel. The grey clouds have lifted, and the beautiful clear skies adorn my atmosphere. I can finally breathe with peace in my heart. When I was on the radiation table a few months ago, there was a painting on the roof of a beautiful spring clear sky with flowers blooming on both sides. I would always imagine what life would be like if I could be outside at that moment instead of a metal table getting radiated through my body. I would often find myself tearing up...not out of pain, but out of exhaustion. Often, I prayed for a different scenario, where my life wasn't pinned against a wall. Where I could lay in the sun and take in the fresh air without fear of burning my skin or exposing my immune system. Well, the day has come... I AM OFFICIALLY A CANCER SURVIVOR.  I can ...